I am so BORED here! I’ve gotten lots of Nugget time, which is awesome- but I’m going nuts in this house! There’s nothing to do up here except sit around and bug the shit out of people with text messages -_- There’s so much crap I need to do, but I can’t get motivated to do it and even worse, I’ve been boredom eating… Hoping that spending the weekend away will help a bit- and when I get back it’s time to get fucking Serious about the gym…and a job—
Anxiety is high tonight-it’s been building all day now I’m going to go lay in bed and stair at the ceiling I guess…bc that’ll fix it -_-
AGAIN WITH THE NIGHTMARES WITHIN NIGHTMARES! Also, why do I always wake up from them at a half hour? 3:30 Monday, 4:30 today… weird. Maybe I’m a night owl because I’m totes afraid of [sleeping in] the dark. I can sleep forever in the daylight. #vampireproblems
“NO. No no no. I don’t want to screw you. I just love you. When did who you want to screw become the whole game? Since when is the person you want to screw the only person you get to love? It’s so stupid, Tiny! I mean, Jesus, who even gives a fuck about sex?! People act like it’s the most important thing humans do, but come on. How can our sentient fucking lives revolve around something slugs can do. I mean, who you want to screw and whether you screw them? Those are important questions, I guess. But they’re not that important. You know what’s important? Who would you die for? Who do you wake up at five forty-five in the morning for even though you don’t even know why he needs you? Whose drunken nose would you pick?!”—John Green & David Levithan, will grayson, will grayson (via semis0nic-smile)
Tomorrow begins my last week living in GSO… Looks like I’ll be doing a whole lot of nothin’ for the rest of the Summer—make that a whole lot of nothin’ on Maddie’s couch because Mom makes me too anxious to stay around very long. blessherheart.